It won't interfere, I promise, and it's not just for that either. You know he wants to make things right with you, after the-- other him couldn't. I think it might be good for the both of you, if... you know, if you were okay with trying. I mean. I don't want to go presuming I know what'd be best, here, I don't want to
Like I said, I'm not trying to overstep any boundaries. Being with him doesn't mean I'm trying to fill a role, I'm not going to be anything to you that you don't want me to be. I'll stay out of your way if you need me to.
What do you think of me, Ryan? That I am your lover's child from another timeline? The two of you are not responsible for me, as I never existed in his world in the first place. I am another Henry's son, from another time. That burden is mine alone to bear.
Don't look upon me as you would a child. I am his age, and I have seen just as much bloodshed.
I'm not- it's not that I see you as his kid, exactly. Just his family, or at least the closest he has to that, and even if it isn't precisely right for either of you... it's not a case of trying to take responsibility for you, what I'm trying to say is that I'm not. Because you're right, you're already grown and frankly you've seen more shit than I have, it's kind of impossible to see you as just his child.
Hm. I see what you were saying. I'll consider the offer.
Are you talking about your lover or my father? Though I suppose the end is much the same. My father has more crimes to speak of, as he left me for a battlefield. The man in Asgard has no such ties to me or my mother. So there is technically no abandonment, merely a man wearing a familiar face.
...in truth, I don't know what to think of anything. You think me resolute, perhaps, but I waver when I see his face.
Still, if I don't cling to my beliefs, then what do I have left? I cannot keep going if I crumble at the first dead man who crosses my path. I refuse to mourn a second time. This is not something I will compromise on.
You're talking about it like you only have things to lose, Gerome. I know it's not really this straightforward, but- you do know what you'll have left, don't you? He's not going anywhere, he'll be around for you. So will I, if you want me to be. It's not going to inherently change you, either.
It's not some sort of betrayal to take him up on wanting to make up for his other self. No one's asking you to forget the one of them that actually is your father, we both know he's not a replacement. More a surrogate.
And I know there's people who say that we're all just going to forget this later, so there's no sense bothering-- but I've always sort of seen it the opposite. Why not take chances on things, you know? If they go badly, it's not forever. If they go well... well, you've made the best of your time here, and you can at least have some satisfaction in that, right?
I suppose... you have something of a point. I can understand your reasoning, even if I don't exactly agree to it. You believe that I might as well know both of you, but what if this world ends as it is fated to? If the world around us dies- if he abandons me for another battlefield? Or worse, what if I survive the end of all things once more?
You tell me that I only think of things in terms of losing them. It's simple logic to me, the lone wolf who has already lost everything. Why should I try to find value in anything if I'll only lose it again?
It really doesn't sound like anybody expects there to be survivors if we fail, I'm not sure you need to worry about that one. Or about Henry, either- he's come back before, we all have, but even with that... I don't intend for that to happen again. I'm not going to let it.
If you really think we can't fight this, that's your business- but you have fought here anyway, haven't you? You're not exactly sitting around waiting for the world to end. If you lose everything here, it's going to be because everyone does, and it isn't as though you'll be around after that to mourn the loss.
...okay, look, if this comes out more offensive than I'm aware of I'm preemptively sorry, but
end of the world sort of means, well, the end of all of it, yeah? And it was more than just you around afterwards? What you went through- it sounds more like it was the beginning of the end for your world. If it were the end you wouldn't be around at all.
Well, we'll make sure she doesn't, then- the cats are pretty well-behaved, Catherine might try her luck but she's still just a kitten. I think she'll learn better than to try to poke a wyvern.
I'll keep an eye on them. If it comes to it, I can break them up without having to step in or any of them getting hurt, promise she won't get any cat scratches.
...so we'll see you in a few days? Or did you want to wait longer, I don't want to assume too much here, I just. Wanted to know how long we'll have to get the spare room fixed up a bit.
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You want me there to help protect him. Would this not interfere with your engagement?
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Like I said, I'm not trying to overstep any boundaries. Being with him doesn't mean I'm trying to fill a role, I'm not going to be anything to you that you don't want me to be. I'll stay out of your way if you need me to.
It'd just make him happy, is all.
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What do you think of me, Ryan? That I am your lover's child from another timeline? The two of you are not responsible for me, as I never existed in his world in the first place. I am another Henry's son, from another time. That burden is mine alone to bear.
Don't look upon me as you would a child. I am his age, and I have seen just as much bloodshed.
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What do you think of him, anyway?
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Are you talking about your lover or my father? Though I suppose the end is much the same. My father has more crimes to speak of, as he left me for a battlefield. The man in Asgard has no such ties to me or my mother. So there is technically no abandonment, merely a man wearing a familiar face.
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Still, if I don't cling to my beliefs, then what do I have left? I cannot keep going if I crumble at the first dead man who crosses my path. I refuse to mourn a second time. This is not something I will compromise on.
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It's not some sort of betrayal to take him up on wanting to make up for his other self. No one's asking you to forget the one of them that actually is your father, we both know he's not a replacement. More a surrogate.
And I know there's people who say that we're all just going to forget this later, so there's no sense bothering-- but I've always sort of seen it the opposite. Why not take chances on things, you know? If they go badly, it's not forever. If they go well... well, you've made the best of your time here, and you can at least have some satisfaction in that, right?
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You tell me that I only think of things in terms of losing them. It's simple logic to me, the lone wolf who has already lost everything. Why should I try to find value in anything if I'll only lose it again?
Entropy is simply our fate. We cannot fight it.
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If you really think we can't fight this, that's your business- but you have fought here anyway, haven't you? You're not exactly sitting around waiting for the world to end. If you lose everything here, it's going to be because everyone does, and it isn't as though you'll be around after that to mourn the loss.
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I'm not going to make that same mistake again.
[Tooootally not gonna mention the fighting stuff. That doesn't mean anything!!!]
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end of the world sort of means, well, the end of all of it, yeah? And it was more than just you around afterwards? What you went through- it sounds more like it was the beginning of the end for your world. If it were the end you wouldn't be around at all.
From everything they've said, this is different.
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I don't see how that makes a difference.
...either way, fine. I'll stay for a weekend, since you seem so determined. If Minerva hates it, then I will not entertain the notion again.
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...and thank you. It'll mean a lot to Henry.
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...so we'll see you in a few days? Or did you want to wait longer, I don't want to assume too much here, I just. Wanted to know how long we'll have to get the spare room fixed up a bit.
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ill be over in a few days. do you require anything?